music. love. expression. evolution.

Me finding myself through my music.


I thought I saw you, the one who would carry me through this life time
through this life time
I thought I saw you, the one who would save me from myself
save me from this hell
but I was sitting here alone, cuz I had to watch you go
and live your life, but
I, I died inside the moment we said goodbye
I tried to fight back the tears, when I should have cried

I thought I found the man I could hold
through the the loneliest of nights
I thought I’d finally feel at home, with you by my side
and I tried to pretend that this wasn’t the end
and I tried so hard to be happy with the way things are
I should have cried
I should have cried

I should have told what was on my mind
maybe then you’d be right by my side
I should have told you
that everything wasn’t alright
and I never wanted to say goodbye

I should have cried
maybe we would be alright

I feel like I”m drowning
I keep reaching out my hand to you
but the water keeps rising
and I’m slipping further away from you

and I wanna hold you like i used to before you went away
back when you were mine to keep and you were here to stay

you took the best parts of me

I wanna be the one you come home to at night
and I wanna know that every heart beat of yours is mine
I wanna have you here until the end of our lives
is that too much to ask for?
for you to love me right 
to love me right

feels like I’m dying
alone here, locked up in my room
it feels so lonely
now that I have to carry on without you
what is this I’m feeling I think my heart just broke in two
you can have both of the pieces
cuz I wont be needing them without you
without you

I feel like I’m drowning
keep reaching out my hand for you
the water keeps rising
and I’m slipping further away from you
I’m slipping away from you

I probably should be over you by now
but here I am, these tears coming down
I probably should, shouldn’t think about you by now
but my heart, my heart has been let down
because you’re not around
because you’re not around
because you’re not around

It’s not easy loving you but I try 
because I know that I need you in my life 
when you go away I miss you 
my heart it starts to ache when I’m without you 
but it’s not easy loving you yeah that’s right 
I’m gonna need you right here by my side 
cuz life without you is hard for me to see 
I need you here with me baby 
so please don’t leave 
so please don’t leave… 

Who’s gonna love me? 
Who can I call mine? 
Who’s gonna be there on those lonely nights? 
Who’s gonna tell me that everything’s alright? 
I can’t do this thing alone 
I need you in my life 

but it’s it not easy loving you, aint that the truth 
I’ve tried so damn hard to just get over you 
when I close my eyes you’re always on my mind 
but it’s not easy loving you on any given night

I need feathers and honey on Smurfs.

Hmm, not so innocent


Strike out everything you’ve done.

  1. Had a Beer
  2. Smoked an entire cigarette
  3. Smoked a cigar
  4. Done drugs
  5. Write on a bathroom wall.
  6. Read a George Orwell book.
  7. Had sex.
  8. Had a physical fight.
  9. Used Twitter.
  10. Listened to Lady Gaga.
  11. Been in a car accident.
  12. Gotten suspended.
  13. Gotten expelled.
  14. Been allergic to something.
  15. Gotten a computer virus.
  16. Touched a real gun.
  17. Had a dog.
  18. Had a cat.
  19. Been pregnant.
  20. Camped out.
  21. Swam in the ocean.
  22. Wore a bikini.
  23. Driven a car
  24. Been sent to the principal.
  25. Ever liked someone.
  26. Failed a class.
  27. Failed a test.
  28. Went to summer school. 
  29. Got worse than a D.
  30. Got A*s, A’s and B’s.
  31. Read an entire book.
  32. Recorded my own music.
  33. Had an xbox.
  34. Worn heels more than 3 days in a row.
  35. Wore fishnets. 
  36. Wore skinny jeans.
  37. Been in love. 
  38. Hated someone.
  39. Been cheated on.
  40. Cheated on someone.
  41. Did something sexual with someone of the same sex.
  42. Practiced Christianity.
  43. Worn makeup.
  44. Lied to my parents about where I was going.
  45. Had surgery.
  46. Had my license.
  47. Been to college.
  48. Graduated high school.
  49. Attempted suicide.
  50. Worn colored contacts.
  51. Painted my nails black.
  52. Broken someone’s heart.
  53. Had my heart broken. 
  54. Cried for an hour straight.
  55. Lost something very valuable.
  56. Got separated from one of my parents as a kid.
  57. Broken a bone. 
  58. Gotten stung by a bee.
  59. Eaten something bad/expired.
  60. Threw up from being so drunk.
  61. Saw someone throw up from being so drunk.
  62. Danced with someone of the opposite sex.
  63. Owned an ipod.
  64. Owned an iphone.
  65. Fell for a best friend. 
  66. Stole a friend’s significant other.
  67. Went far away from home for more than a week.
  68. Moved out.
  69. Ran away.
  70. Teased my brother/sister
  71. Been to a hospital.
  72. Had food poisoning.
  73. Had a job.
  74. Been fired.
  75. Lied to a friend.
  76. Lied to a family member.
  77. Had a Facebook.
  78. Posted a video on Youtube.
  79. Started a rumor about someone. 
  80. Talked bad about someone.
  81. Dropped out of school.
  82. Deliberately failed a test.
  83. Been skinny dipping.
  84. Counted to a million.  
  85. Counted to a thousand.
  86. Ate rabbit meat.
  87. Ate duck meat.  
  88. Had fast food.
  89. Been to Church.
  90. Been to Canada.
  91. Been married.
  92. Had a divorce.
  93. Broke a glass.
  94. Hugged someone today.
  95. Texted someone today.
  96. Received a phone call today.
  97. Threw something out of the window. 
  98. Ignored a text from someone on purpose.
  99. Had my feelings hurt by a friend and never told them.
  100. Wished you were somebody else.